Me Again?

Morning sun.
The magnolias bloomed.
Peppermint fragrance
in the air.
The birds sang.
Spring in my heart and soul.

Like a bird carefree
I soared to
the heights of the sky.

Loving.
Joyful.
Laughing.
Dreaming.

Light as feathers.

Beauty below.
Hope ahead.

Dreaming.
Laughing.
Joyful.
Loving.

The evening.
A beautiful breeze
and fireflies.

Then.

A shot in the darkness.
Seemingly from nowhere.
Straight to the heart
the bullet flew.

Pain.

Falling.
Falling.

Falling.

Plunk.

Numbness
as I hit the ground.

Here I am
looking up to
all that was
lost in the sky.

Hurting.
Crying.

Lonely.
Cold.
Shivering.

Mourning.
The dreams.
The hopes.
The love as pure
as a white rose.

Will I heal?
Will I be strong enough
to soar there again one day?

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Please pinch me so
I can wake from this horrible nightmare
that has violated my heart and soul.

Pinch me to take away the pain.
It cannot be real.

But it is.