I'm going to call it Ughhh Week. A year ago... This week is vivid in my mind. One day we made plans; hours later he was gone. Yes, Ughhh Week. Trying to keep the blog "clean." Other words come to mind, really.
Anyhoo.
Anyhoo.
A year ago. I suppose I should stop whining.
Yes, he left me a precious daughter, no doubt.
But you know, there are people who have the man and the precious kids. Why not me? Why? Why couldn't I have had both?
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Cadi don't keep it clean vent all you like my sweet this is a time of great reflection and pain and sadness for you. I so wish I could give you back what your heart so desires. If only it was possible and wishes really could come true.
Much love,
Thinking of you often
Kimmie
xxx
those are the exact questions I have been askingmyself my whole adult life.
Why are others able to find love at a young age?
Why are others happily married and have children to love?
Why was I given a life without children, that I so wanted?
I had become resigned to the fact that the man I thought I would spend my life with would be there when the time was right. . but he married, had esophogeal cancer (which was killing him) and then was killed in a head on crash . . . I still morn the loss and what could have/should have been
I am, though, happy that God did see fit to give me a man who is the other half of me that I had, unknowingly, been looking for. I just wonder why it took so long? Why was I made to wait for more than half of my life?
Maybe, someday, Miss Cadi, we will understand these mysteries. But, honestly, we probably never will and will always walk around with a question mark hanging over our souls.
Please, when you sleep, have sweet dreams of your love . . you and he deserve those dreams together.
"Please, when you sleep, have sweet dreams of your love . . you and he deserve those dreams together."
How very true!
xxx
You should say what you want, I have always liked that about you.
Love to you!
Sending you positive energy and light from my little corner of the world. Don't keep things clean on our account :) Many of us are asking the same question. Why indeed. As Sarah said it sucks. But you're awesome!
A year already, but that's not long at all. Hugs to you.
Like Lottie, a year is not long at all in this journey. xxx
Hugs.....Breathe deeply and enjoy your thoughts and memories and vent,cry all you need...
A year really is such a very short time. There is no why, sometimes life just is, sometimes it is great and sometimes it sucks. Thinking of you and your lovely children this week xxx
grief is not whining. You should have had both. That he may be here "in spirit" is great and all, but he is not physically here, and that blows. That there may or may not be a 'plan' is, I don't know - great and all, but living this plan blows. Beautiful sweet things exist, and it truly rots that he is not here. Both things are true. Love alongside great suckage.
xo
Life is cruel. Be angry but stay sane.
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