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I have been feeling extremely needy these past few days. The bummer is that there's nobody around to accommodate by neediness, nobody available to talk to. I spend most evenings by myself and sometimes I just get tired of being with myself. While I enjoy knitting & reading, sometimes these two activities start to annoy me. It's not that I'm trying to avoid self-reflection or quiet. It's not that I need to be entertained. It's just that I think there comes a point when I've been with myself for so long that I need to socialize.
I realize that this implies that happiness can somehow come from without, when it really needs to arise from within. It seems unfair that nobody is available during my time of feeling "needy." If I were enlightened I would say that I'm grateful that having to be alone with myself in the situation is sparking some inner work that is necessary on my path to human becoming (or something along those philosophical lines). --- However, I'm far from being enlightened, so I'm just annoyed that I'm spending yet another evening alone, without conversation.
I better go and talk to myself.
I have been feeling extremely needy these past few days. The bummer is that there's nobody around to accommodate by neediness, nobody available to talk to. I spend most evenings by myself and sometimes I just get tired of being with myself. While I enjoy knitting & reading, sometimes these two activities start to annoy me. It's not that I'm trying to avoid self-reflection or quiet. It's not that I need to be entertained. It's just that I think there comes a point when I've been with myself for so long that I need to socialize.
I realize that this implies that happiness can somehow come from without, when it really needs to arise from within. It seems unfair that nobody is available during my time of feeling "needy." If I were enlightened I would say that I'm grateful that having to be alone with myself in the situation is sparking some inner work that is necessary on my path to human becoming (or something along those philosophical lines). --- However, I'm far from being enlightened, so I'm just annoyed that I'm spending yet another evening alone, without conversation.
I better go and talk to myself.
4 comments:
Sending you white light...
Oh Cadi, I wish you could come over and chat with me. We could still knit too...
Thank you to both of you! :-)
I think I went into the same pit of self reflection a week ago.....I wonder if the planets were messing with us!
I realized that even with over 300 friends on facebook.....I had no real friends to call and talk about "nothing" with.
I have my kids and husband....but I realized that it takes lots of energy to form, maintain and follow through with friendships....I guess I am too lazy for friendships! that sucks to here me say
Cadi, I wish we lived closer...we could vent together in our Melancholy
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